80, it totally breaks

Happy birthday to yanjun; XINGAN:D
May god bless you with everything you want.
I'm sorry that I didn't go when I'm able t go.
Sorry, I just can't help jealousing.
If I go, I would be more jealous.
Sorry.
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Last night, thought too much.
Just real too much, cried, shut my phone & I couldn't sleep.
I slept, and woke up during th midnight.
Hais, I think I'm thinking too much):
This morning, trying just t fake a smile.
I couldn't take it, I just vexed my anger on Siwei.
I faked that it was all about exams anxiety.
Yeah, sorry Siwei.

English&MT paper 1 over.
I think I wrote out of point.
I've disappointed myself, I totally hate myself.
Went home with th usual people, sicko came t my house.
I played audition, then let her play.
Then, thought about many things again.
I cried & fell asleep, sicko doesnt knows.
She just went home, and I'm posting here.

Everything below, decide t read or not.
Everything is just changing, am I just thinking things?
I guess I'm not, I hope I'm not.
Today is Yanjun's birthday.
I disappointed her by not going, know why?
because I'm jealous, those who are going are holding exactly th same kind of files.
I go = extra, what's th use?
I disappointed Janice as well.
I know she's angry, Lynn too(?)
Sorry guys, so damn fxcking sorry.
& You,
Idk why, are you trying t make me fall in love with you?
I've been thinking a lot, what the hell do you want me t do?
I have been thinking of you all day long, WHY?
Get lost in my mind.
I'm emotional, I've been faking smiles all day long ):

Sorry, I'm going crazy.