174, YAYNESS

Later gonna meet 1E peepos, Imissthem like hell. Then canteenfriends also meeting up, bt nobody told me untill last minute. Ah, whatever lah. I'm gonna blog my feelings here, because I have to tell them how I feel. If not I'll keep getting pangseh by them. Yes, I'll do it, you guys will start to argue with me after this post, and I don't care alrd. I sincerely want you guys to know how I feel. I feel so upset, why am I always th last one to know that they're meeting up. Sigh, I don't think I really belong to this group, because I also don't think they treat me as part of it. They may not show through actions, but follow on, they will then act that they did. I hate this, if they really don't want me to be part of this group. I can automatically step out of this group, I don't want them to act in front of me, that they want me to be part of this group.

They might think that I only care for 1E peepos, and also band people. But I also care for them, I read their blog to see where they might be going. I also tried talking to them in MSN, bt some aren't online. I also love them, and they are also part of my life. At first, I didn't want to be part of this group, because I felt I was so damn out. Th only 1E in this group, and th rest was from 1F & 1G. Then I told Janice, she kept asking me don't like this etc. I just can't take it, eventually, I told myself to try being part of this group. I tried, but eveybody treat me as if I'm that transparent. I want to meet them tmrw, I also can throw aside meeting 1E peepos to meet them, but nobody tag me to say they wanted to see and they miss me (from th canteenfriends) this is partly because I'm jealous, yes you can say I'm jealous. :(

I thought that it might be partly because that my profile I put up those names, and they may say I don't love/like them. This is wrong, I still love them, and I thought it might be mistaken, and I took them out alrd. Mygod, sorry if this was a misunderstanding thing man. :(