Mistakes is natural, but doing it again its no longer natural.

A lot of bad things happened today and there is only one thing that made me happy.
Whenever I scold or somebody else's say them, how can I not feel hurt because they are under me, I'm the leader. I tried all my ways to scold or improve or to teach despite me having an impatient character. I tried, I controlled! I just feel that I have enough workload in my studies and going band is suppose to let me not feel that stress. If controlling just 7 person in a section is so hard, I feel that I'm a failure. Really. I'm the biggest loser on Earth. FML. Whatever it is, I love my section. Be it the alumni or younger ones, everybody is like my brothers and sisters. I swear hard. Percussion, I hope this had really knock some sense into you if you are reading.

Sighs.