Disappointing.

I feel stupid. Every term, I tell myself I have to buck up and pull up my socks. But I didn't. Why? This is stupid really. :( I don't know what to do. I feel stupid. My friends around me, has put in a lot of effort and thus having awesome results. Congratulations to them but yet they are telling me that they can do better. Comparing this and that in front of me, but have you ever thought about how awesome your friend here has scored? It is freaking awesome that your jaws are gna dropped. This feeling is like somebody taking a few dozens of knife and stabbing it into my heart. I feel hurt.

The colours in the picture, represents happiness. Many different vibrant colours that allowed one to remember it vividly. The thought of it, just make one remember rainbow. A rainbow has many different colours, everybody would smile when they see it. It represents happiness. I want happiness. I want to be happy for my results. But this wish has never come true at all. Please allow me to promote, I will work harder. I swear upon my life. I will not want to regret ever, ever again.

Pushball tomorrow. Fucking sian. Hate this. I am so not gna particpate as I have not been participating for the past 10 months?

I'm sucha a disgrace for womens. I don't fit to even be one.