Lost.

I've lost. I'm lost. I've lost both great friend that has once been with me all the ups and downs I had. Now, I lost them. My childish and stupid acts made them leave me, but I really couldn't take it! If I don't tell them how I feel, I will be the one feeling so stupid over at a side looking at how happy they look like when they are with their friends and not being part of CCSB. This clique, is over, sooner or later because of both of them. 1 is so packed with her classes, training etc, and the other's phone has a great problem in it. Sigh, what am I suppose to do?

Now both of them has their own life in class already, they no longer need me when they are in need of help. One side has x and the side has a,e,s,f many many more. I wished to join NYAA silver folkdance because it will really be a great help for me, but I've lost the chance, and never I would gonna get it in my hands again. :( Everyday going to school with a smile, it's hard, tried so hard to stop thinking but I can't. My heart just kept reminiscing and is gonna break into pieces if this continues.

Who can I talk to when I need help, because they are no longer there. But now, I'm gonna re-create new best friends of mine. :(
Still, Xh, Yx, Lp, Crystal will never fails to be there for me, right!!! :)